All our lives, we’ve been told to think twice, thrice before making a decision, to consider and
over-analyse every single possibility, every consequence, every moment… Because apparently, any form of slip-up or miscalculation will ruin your future, blur your path… Apparently, one strike and you’re out…
I’m sure we’ve all been there – that moment of extreme adrenalin coursing through your veins, eyes blurry from all the excitement as you shook with a concoction of hope, anxiety and fear burning within you, head giddy from all the rush and thrill as you embraced your courage head on and made the decision, no hesitation – We’ve all been impulsive. Whether it be booking a flight to Bali at 3am in the morning for an impromptu (but much needed) trip or working up the courage to talk to someone you’ve always had an interest in, there’s always that sense of excitement that lingers, even years after; that sense of elation knowing that you went for it and that because of that split second courage, you had the time of your life, no regrets, no doubts.
I guess that’s why high school relationships are always so memorable, it’s those moments of pure impulse to be daring, to try new things, to experience the world with this other person. Maybe that’s why we lose this sense of impulse as we grow older; having learn from all the heartaches and bruised knees to get the upper hand and ponder over a decision until our brains melt, just to avoid the fall, to prevent ourselves from getting hurt once more, from that humiliation and pain, no more.
Always that sense of melancholy as you wish you were right back in that moment, that frame in time where you tossed between the options as if the world depended on that one answer… Which to many of us, at that point in time, it did, it did feel like the world depended on it, like our lives would take a 180 degree turn because of it. And maybe it will, maybe it wouldn’t… Maybe you’ll end up curled in the corner of your room kicking yourself for that impulsiveness or maybe you’ll have the best time of your life … maybe so, maybe not. I only hope for the latter for each and every one of you. However, if it so happens that it’s the first one, take it as a learning experience because everything happens for a reason, if it isn’t here to make you happy, it’s here to teach you a lesson, to make you a better, wiser person – to help you grow.
Don’t get me wrong, there are certain things where hastiness is NEVER ( I repeat, NEVER) the answer and as to whether a decision is room for you to let lose and roll the dice of fate, it’s all up to you. You have the power to change the course of your life and I’ve been foolish to not realise this earlier but at least I do now, it’s all in your hands.
Don’t be afraid to let your hair down once in a while, let your guard down and see where it leads you because you never know, it just might be the best decision you’ve ever made.
xx Big love,